G(END)ER FVCK(ED)
2024 - 2024
materials: my internal organs, rage and becoming, queer dirt* and handmade clay, bathwater and body hair, dad’s hunting ducks, rope, leather, metal hardware, sex toys, bones, pink
*dirt voluntarily donated by local queer folx from their homes. special thanks to Thea Leanna, Jonathan Bury, and Alessa & Nic.
this installation serves as an embodiment of Queer sensibilities and a refusal of defining bodies and beings through binarism. this space is the transcendence, fragmentation, and abstraction of body in an aggressively Queer manner.
Queer is implicated through the use of highly gendered objects that are subverted, the presence of hole and penetration, pleasure, pain, and references to the body that refuse to be concrete or immediately tethered to a specific gender. the space employs the sensibilities of Queer futurism and Transrelationality, as well as Kink, Glitch and Countersexualism. the work clashes death and rebirth, world-building and the acknowledgement of the violence (un)living Queer beings and bodies are subjected to. the installation is pink as recognition of my own leap into hyperfemininity as i subvert any expectation of “passing,” as well as a nod to the reclamation of pink as a Queer symbol. the space is meant to evolve and refuses to be static. it is meant to be both a haven and safe-space of Queer-seeing-Queer, but also a space of discomfort and unease for the cis heterosexual gaze. i embed the work with my lived experience, but simultaneously open the works to a larger conversation of a refusal of binarism, a refusal to function and be categorized, and a loud proclamation that trans people have always been here, and always will be. i consider this work to be another iteration of splaying my soul while simultaneously residing in and reaffirming opacity, obscurity, and the inability to become static.
TITLES
my dad did drag once but he won’t talk about it
dad’s hunting ducks, gesso, pink spray paint, cishet fragility + denial, my own queerness, pink rope
t-parties with grandma in a conservative arizona town
replicated childhood tea set, nipple bars, o-rings, ex’s thread, gesso-soaked table, pink satin and rhinestone lace, empty hrt bottles
look ma! i’m abusing controlled substances to make my clit bigger!
spray paint, chicken wire, my hair, used hrt supplies, piercing jewelry, top surgery hospital bracelet, canvases from my ex
i hope i leave a taste in your mouth, i hope i make you choke
tea set, spray paint, leather, rivets, o-rings, elk teeth, pink pleather, table
laid to unrest
lead weights and rope from dad’s duck decoys, leather, rivets, o-rings
you want us dead unless, or immediately after, you fuck us
pink clothes racks, processed bovine skull, my old vibrator (used everywhere until it broke), my underwear and tights, chains and saw found in the road, hat with faggot patch, fake pearls, pink rope
boy purse; boy pussy; fuck you (1)
grandma’s purse, old shared vibrator (used vaginally, then anally with a partner), testosterone prescription box
boy purse; boy pussy; fuck you (2)
grandma’s purse, piercing jewelry, o-rings, metal clip, chain link, eyebolt
boy purse; boy pussy; fuck you (3)
grandma’s purse, old vibrator, testosterone prescription box, needle wrappings
bite down
clay teeth impressions, pink paint, thread
the bruising, the blistering
teeth prints on binding tape
change operation
brake rotors, leather, o-rings, rivets, dirt
i’d tell you to pry it out of my cold dead body but you’d probably enjoy that
iud packaging, iron particulate, earth, shellac, lead weights, rope used in hunting, grandma’s manicure tools
pry
fireplace tongs, pink rope, pink spray paint, piercing jewelry, o-rings, metal clips, eyebolts
coursing
vinyl/plastic, piercing jewelry, o-rings, pink rhinestone lace
grandma texted me and told me not to get pregnant and make ‘broken babies’
tea set casing, tampon applicators, testosterone bottles, piercing jewelry, hrt needles and syringes, ceramic duck head, pink spray paint, grandma’s audacity
save a cis-man; ride a duck-do
hand-made pleather strap-on harnesses, dad’s hunting duck heads, pink spray paint, gesso, black ink, zine compliment
i tried to strangle myself in our closet and you called me inconsiderate
cast iron hyoid bone with blood, urine, refractory and iron sediment, cupric nitrate, and ferric nitrate patina. rope, metal o-rings, rivets, leather, rope from duck decoys
SAVE A CIS MAN; RIDE A DUCKDO (ZINE)
g(end)eR fVck(ed) (BODY ZINE)
